i do realise that i am all over the place. and i am incapable of having a single thought and holding it for atleast 2 seconds. unless it includes him. then, boy do i dwell. i do over analyse. how do i stop myself?

god he brings out every possible flaw in me.

my ability to overanalyse until there is nothing left to look at.
my selfishness, no matter how much i know this should stop i cant bring myself to do it. for my sake.
my lack of self control.
my lack of morals.
i am a cheat.

and no matter how much i hate it, i cant change.