he gets in touch.
 
i dont know how to handle this. we're meant to be meeting tonight. to talk.

im fretting over nothing i guess. you know he's sorry for this and he's sorry for that. but what i really want to know is does he want to have his cake AND eat it?

i suppose tonight is as good an opportunity as ever to get everything i've felt over the past 5 days off my chest.

he's got his reasons for what he did. he says. do i want to know, i asked. and 'probably not' was his reply.

he wants to be friends still, he wants me in his life. is this him reeling off another story so i feel bad for holding a grudge? is this him trying to manipulate me into thinking his way? or am i far too cynical for a girl of 18?

so tonight: walking and talking?

i'll keep you updated.